random thoughts

Driving home from service the other day, I felt a surge of confidence, focus and happiness with my life in all tenses: past, present and future. I have been Semester at Sea nostalgic recently, so maybe I am feeling the effects of my growth from the ship, that voyage. Maybe this is just my extreme confident/happy stage before my mean-red/depression phase of March/April (the calm before the storm.) Maybe I am maturing and becoming more self-aware, confident and content with who I am. Maybe it’s because I am instantly surrounded by people in my programme that I instantly connected with, who care for me; giving me support and confidence, feeding my happiness. Maybe it’s India, and that I am considered to be special and a rare find, where simply my smile is highly valued – unlike the US where I feel inadequate and lacking in skills.

Maybe it’s a combination of all these things. But forget analyzing it – I’ll just sit back and enjoy it.