no wisdom

Moments like these remind you of why you have certain friends in your life. She is one of them: http://maryspitzmueller.blogspot.com/2008/07/changing-scenery.html

Another friend once told me that I have a talent of choosing friends. I pick people who innately I can love and trust with all my soul. Cleary, he was right.

Blaming my surroundings, my location, scolding my self and my faults – I have recently lost me. Fear, confusion and doubt have encompassed my heart, so much so that all my knowledge and logic from past experiences are stomped out by my tyrant emotions. My escape hatches have failed and my over-analyzing digs my hole further. I lost my connection of stability between my heart that holds my passion and my head that holds my logic. My heart and emotion now obliquely dominate my focus, causing superficial self-indulgence.

But my words are lacking and I cannot express myself, but what I can tell you is that it’s alright. It’s alright now. This is one moment in my long life. It, too, shall pass. The world was created to be balanced. This internal suffering is needed for me to strive to be better, to achieve happiness, and awareness. My moments of happiness and awareness is needed to ultimately feel the stuff that life is made of, and appreciate my struggles.

What is needed is for me to reflect the balance the world has created. To focus. To breathe. To be.

And to always remember what Socrates said: ‘the wisest man knows that he knows nothing.”